Friends and family say 17-year-old Noor Nehar Begum worried about being left out of the National Register of Citizens.
At midday June 27, wails and shrieks pierced the moist air in Rowmari Chapori, a village on a sand bar in the Brahmaputra river, inhabited by Bengali Muslims, in Assam’s Darrang district. The body of 17-year-old Noor Nehar Begum had arrived home from the district hospital in Mangaldai, where a postmortem was conducted. Begum had hanged herself with a churni almost exactly 24 hours ago.
Her suicide was being connected to the National Register of Citizens – the list of bona fide Indian citizens living in Assam that is currently being finalised. Noor had not made it to the list.
As her body was placed in the courtyard, wet from the morning rains, her parents lunged towards her. Halima Khatun, the mother, lay down and hugged her deceased daughter; the father, Abdul Kalam, kneeled down next to the body and cried loudly.
But Kalam was interrupted. The grieving could wait – the ambulance driver had to be paid first: Rs 1,650 for ferrying his daughter’s dead body from the morgue.
The introvert
It was money that Kalam, a daily-wage labourer with stones in his kidney and an enlarged liver, could ill afford. The family’s fortunes had declined with Kalam’s health. Earlier, he would go to Dimapur in neighbouring Nagaland – a place he referred to as “bidesh” or foreign land – where the wages would be higher. But after the stones in his kidney got painful, he stopped venturing out too far.
One of the first casualties of this fall in income was Noor. As she cleared her Class 8 exams – the highest grade in the government middle school Noor attended – she was pulled out of school. The nearest government high school was almost 10 kilometres away and it was beyond Kalam to pay for a private school.
Noor started staying home, tending the household and doing little else, according to relatives and neighbours. Always an introvert, the few friendships she had forged in school also started to wither.
Was she upset about having to leave school? “How would I know?” retorted an old friend who went to middle school with Noor. “After she stopped going to school, I would hardly get to meet her as she would rarely step out.”
All of Noor’s relatives and neighbours concurred. Noor was painfully shy, had little by way of a social life, and spent most of her time at home. “All the girl knew was home, home and home,” said a neighbour Hafiza Khatun.